The Richmond's

Do you ever feel like God hates you? Or maybe hate is a little strong but dislike immensly? Like you've done something wrong and you are being punished? That is the feeling going on in our household right now. Johnny sends out resumes every day and hears nothing. That's hard on a person's self esteem. Mondi (the place he interviewed for) told him they filled one spot and still deciding on the other, and he only found that out because he called and inquired about where they were in the process. When we have a shot at success we get knocked down. ApplianceSmart was a great job, only to be taken away. School was suppossed to be the light at the tunnel, but why isn't it working out that way? We should be happy with just having each other right? Now we are starting to have to deal with the fact that if something doesn't come through soon we are going to have to dump the house. Imagine going through all the stuff we have accumulated and trying to fit into an apartment at this rate? More stress. Finding an apartment to let us bring all the animals? More stress. Taking into consideration Maddie is registered for school in the fall so it would need to be somewhere around here so I don't have to drive all over town to get her there. More stress. Trying not to take the stress out on each other and Maddie, difficult. This morning Maddie told me she wanted a brother or sister, yet another thing we can't succeed at. Not as if we have been trying to prevent it all these years. Just about everyone in our sunday school class is pregnant, to bad it isn't contagious,lol. So what do you do when you feel that way? I wish I could figure out what we were being punished for so we could correct it, I hope something gets better soon, we are hanging by a thread.

The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life.

Galatians 6:8